Insomnia

For the past couple of years I will periodically have trouble sleeping. This has never before been an issue in my life. I used to be able to sleep anywhere, anytime and through anything. Not so much now. It tends to come in seasons. I have had a decent few months of sleeping aided a teensy weensy bit by Advil PM gel caps. Yep. I have been drugging myself. Shocking, I know.
Well, last night I arrogantly decided that I had no use for the gel cap and that I was doing great and should try to cold turkey it. Not a great idea. I did get to sleep fine at about 10pm. I woke up at 2, 3, 4 and finally gave up and got up at 5. Now, I don't really want to be up yet. My alarm is set for 6:21 (Yes, 21 is significant but that is a post for another day).....but I just couldn't lay there any longer thinking about how tired I was going to be later today if I didn't go back to sleep. Plus, I had made a list in my mind of things I needed to accomplish and I knew if I didn't get up and write it down I would go crazy. So....here I am. Trying to find the joy of the early morning.

Actually it is a beautiful morning. The Sunrise is turning a few clouds shades of orange and pink and the birds are singing. The rooster has been crowing since 4:49 (I am sad that I know that), and there is not even a breeze. It is peaceful and beautiful and....and.....I wish I were sleeping.

This would be a perfect morning to make some coffee and wrap in a light blanket and sit on the deck cross-legged on a metal lawn chair, sipping away and enjoying the peaceful sounds of morning. One problem. I don't like coffee and I think the caffeine may be counter productive to my goal of sleep.

I will look on the bright side....I am getting my day organized, got Dad's Father's Day card ready to send, I have the 4-H animal ID papers out on the bar for John and Cole to see and hopefully remember to fill out today, I am getting some laundry done, and I made a Walmart list.....at the top of the list is.....Advil PM gel caps. I will and can kick the habit some other time....when I am more rested. I can. If I want to. Anytime.